How many times do we as people hide who we really are for fear that someone will not like us? How often are we truly transparent with our feelings? Do we lose our passions because we are so wrapped up in pleasing others? I believe more people do than realize.
I have lost myself in the past few years. Thoughts of am I a good enough wife, mom, Christian, daughter, sister are constantly swirling in my head. Do I serve enough? Should I do more? Is God happy with me? In the process I have served more, been angry more, depressed more, and although I have served I have lost some of my communion with God.
This is NOT what God has for our lives. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. (paraphrased from Psalm 139:14) I do not have to serve and work for His love. I already have it and so do you. This year, 2011, I am determined to find me again. I am determined to gain my passions once again. God is the one who gave me those passions to begin with. A sweet, sweet friend helped me see that in the process of trying to be all I can be, I have served man and not God. She did not even realize what her words were doing to my heart. (I don't think she did anyway.) This year will be a new journey for me. I am going to take a step back and watch what God has for me. He know better than me anyway. Won't to join in the journey? I hope so. God bless my friends!
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